Christmas Dilemma

Uh oh Christmas Dilemma

   Wow, it's hard to realize I made it threw this year without my Nana and the famous holiday traditions we did with that side of my family, but after we laid her to rest in February the family split apart and we really don't see eye to eye anymore. Very sad actually but honestly it was bound to happen and coming soon in the near future anyways. But Thanksgiving was hard since I tried to include my father in my families Thanksgiving dinner but that just ended up with a big nasty freaking fight that I tried not to cry at but such is life it comes with divorced parents and parents that don't get along. But now we have Christmas coming up and I always remember my Nana loving this time cause she could decorate her tiny Christmas tree, talk to all our family members and of course send her love in every direction and of course cook, her favorite thing to do. But this year we still have many families to visit... first off have my father and mother split make Christmas and any big holiday a hard time... and that goes for my husbands side too since his parents are divorced as well. 

This year is gonna be tricky... Christmas and Christmas Eve is how we used to do our split family events. Well this year we have my Mom's vs. my Dad's but since my Nana isn't here we don't know what's happening ... I was gonna suggest to my Dad that we hold it at my house up in Pelham since honestly it's bigger than his house and we can accommodate the whole set of kids let alone his two grand kids my kids and the families. I know it's weird and all but I don't wanna be cramped in my dad's house either. 

    Another DILEMMA I'm having is who I'm gonna buy gifts for... MY CHILDREN are COMING FIRST no MATTER WHAT... because they are my children. I'm pretty happy that I'm buying for 3 boys it makes it a little bit easier. So this is what I'm thinking....

My List of who I'm buying for 

Gifts from both mommy/daddy & of course (SANTA)

-Sean

-Connor

-Kayden

Gifts from both my husband/self & the Grandbabies 

-My mom Mary

-My mother in law Shirley

-My sister in law Betsy (she's done so much for us-like saving us every time we are in a BIND)

-My father Brian

-My father in law Big Lorne

-My step-mother-in law Celio

-Bruce (he's done so much with helping me fix the house

-My sister Crystal

-My sister Nicky (the kids Aunt and God Mother to all three of my babies)

-My brother James

Everyone else (which is A LOT of people) 

are getting Christmas Cards with a family picture... I just don't have the money this year with the new baby coming before Christmas... which sucks cause I don't mind getting something small for everyone but this year I'm strapped for cash... 

Well that's my dilemma and I'm just hoping people understand... I know certain family members are gonna be upset but honestly we've gone through a lot in the Hatt House Hold and with a new baby on the way and arriving any day I need to focus money were it's most needed.

Thanksgiving Photo's!

Fall Arts & Crafts 

11.22.2012

thanksgiving day kisses for my husband

my main man in my life besides the three little boys that count on me every day!

Happy Thsnksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!

From the Hatt's Family to Yours!!!!

Thanksgiving 2012

Lorne, Amanda, Sean, Connor & itty bitty baby Kayden on the way!!

(pictures up later)

Highlights of November & December 2012

Wow!!!! 

(this is just the highlighted parts- def. stole this from Miss Sarah!)

November 2012

11.6.2012 Election Day (I Voted)

11.14.2012 Considered Full Term (Yay I can POP)

11.20.2012 Hatt's/Weagle's/& Fuller Thanksgiving

11.20.2012 Mediation for Parent Court 

11.22.2012 Hatt's Thanksgiving with Lorne's mother

11.24.2012 Santa's Arrival at Yankee Candle 

December 2012

12.5.2012 Due Date with Mr. Kayden Lucas

12.12.2012 Santa's Trains at Look Park 

12.24.2012 Fuller's Christmas (I think both my Mother's and Grandpa's)

12.25.2012 Hatt's Christmas

12.25.2012 Shirley's Christmas

12.31.2012-1.1.2013 NEW YEARS EVE PARTY

This is what's happening so far... I still have to pick day's for BRIGHT NIGHTS in Springfield (taking my mother, mother-in-law, and the kids)

Plus I want to try to go Christmas Caroling with my Grandpa on a Horse Wagon Ride through Look Park like we did back when I was pregnant with Connor... that was so much fun & would love to do it again. 

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

           Well yesterday I tried to do something amazingly nice... well that back fired in my face!  Lesson very much learned... and I swear I'm only doing things with my family, my husband and our kids after last night. I'm sorry but that was  stressful, uncalled for and some of it was immature... on the upside the cop's weren't called but still never the less my kids were around and that's not what I wanted hell no one could show up on time... and they all knew about it months in advanced.

     Yesterday was November 20, 2012, started off like any normal morning with a small feud between the hub's and me over stupid things, hence I'm pregnant so almost everything and anything has been getting to me ... but that's because I just want this lil guy out. We make a special breakfast for the boys and ourselves, Cina Buns... yum yum yum... then we went off to my Ob-Gyn doctors appointment for 11:20 am.
   If you want to know more about the appointment check out my pregnancy blog (link posted below)
http://thejourneyoflifethatbeginswithin.blogspot.com/


   So we get home a little after noon ish and finish making our Turkey for our Hatt's/ Fuller's/ and Weagle's Thanksgiving! I am of course 37 weeks and 7 days pregnant with my third baby who's been kicking my butt from the get go... Turkey was done around 3:15 in the after noon a little after I wanted everyone here yet no one could get here on time! Well okay my sister did after she told me she wasn't going to get here until 4 or later. So as my sister, her boyfriend, and my family wait for the rest of the people to show up. So everyone gets here around 4:45-5:00 pm almost two hours after we told everyone to be here... dinner was semi chilled as we tried to re-heat everything it was insane crazy... so while the hub's re-heated things my sister and I attempted to head to get my father, who apparently was having TRUCK troubles... likely story non the less we get half way down North Valley Road and he say's he's on his way... joyful... seriously... oh well as pissed as I already was... I was being told to calm down ... never tell a pregnant woman to calm down... BAD MISTAKE it kinda only made things worse... but that's okay ... I took a walk with my mom to my Grandpa Hatt's house so she could go surprise visit him, yet it was a great surprise though he went back to the Hospital GOD BLESS HIS SOUL... he's very sick and needs the care so my dinner was halted because they called for Lorne (my husband) and my mom of course went up because my dad was trying to get up there to be Mr. Know's it All... and that's when the FUN started... like wow really...
     About ten minutes after my mom and husband went next door my dad and sister had a great battle, I'm 37 weeks and 7 days pregnant went threw HELL and BACK to make a wonderful FAMILY THANKSGIVING dinner since it's our first year with out our Nana... my dad's mom... so I wanted to do something were my kids get to have their grandparents... yeah that was a big freaking mistake. But a lesson learned well. After dinner we did some picture taking of the people who were still here... heck we never made it to the pie that i made... but that's okay I wasn't in mood for sweets after dealing with one fight. Yet, worst part was the fact that both my mother and father said they'd have their meeting at my house cause it was a mutual meeting place... well that didn't happen cause my dad was so mad he drove off... joyful right. Well after everyone started to leave... I helped the hub's pick up some of the dishes and get the house back to normal before leaving to head off to my mom's house for my mom and dad to have their meeting and yet who would have thought another FAMILY freaking fight... do I really need to be subjected to this... it was getting late, I was falling asleep and just wanted to get home and go to bed which didn't happen until like Grrr lateness ... but that's how my yesterday went... Grrrr lessons learned and I'm glad it is just over.


Well Hope Everyone Else's Thanksgiving Goes better than this epic failure ... lol... oh well I got another tomorrow that should be akaward enough!

-13 Friend Survey-

- 13 Friends Survey -
Can you name 13 friends you can think of right off the top of your head?
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people.
This is a lot more fun if you actually randomly list the names first... no cheating!

1. Lorne
2. Sean
3. Connor
4. Sarah
5. Mary
6. Katie
7. Mike
8. Shauna
9. Nicky
10. Katelin 
11. Ron
12. Jason
13. Ryan

__________________________________________________________________

Is 1 your best friend? yes he's my husband

Do you go to school with 8? no 

How did you meet 10? threw number 4

Have you ever seen 4 cry? yes if pictures count 

Would 11 and 2 make a good couple? NO

Are you good friends with 13? yes she's my aunt :D

Would you go on a vacation with 6?  hell yes! 

Do you think 5 is cute? that's my mother!

Did you ever kiss 9? yeah ... we are practically sisters

Would you ever date 2? NO he's my son!

Does your family get along with 13? Yes she's family

Something about number 1? he's super sexy and he's a typical guy!

How did you meet 8? threw number 11

What is 7's favorite color? IDK 

What would you do if 6 just confessed that they liked you? giggle a little cause last i knew she liked me cause we sisters!

Fact about 9? she's crazy about my kids :D she love's her nephews

What does 1 do for a living? Product Specialist for Balise 

How many times have you hung out with 8? A LOT she's my neighbor

Would you ever live with 12? NOPE

Is 2 single? YES

Where does 7 live? in Amherst

What do you think about 2? that I love him very much!

Whats the worst and best thing about 5? Uhm she stresses too much!

Who is 11 going out with? Shauna 

What do you like about number 3? that he's my handsome little chunky monkey :D

lesson learned...

               Well let's see I don't trust easily and this is why... In  my life I've had too many people including people who legally were obligated not to talk about what we talked about to the other person... yup they failed... especially when the person who I feared confronted me on it, yeah tell me that wasn't messed up. But then again that wasn't it... their were other people who I then told me I could talk to them and nothing would be said yet always managed to get said back to the person I talked to them about, like really I was left alone in a world... my parents were divorced and they constantly fought in front of us kids, so I grew up with it... I grew up with fighting, swearing and hate... I'm not a hateful person, I'm very much the opposite and try hard to give my kids everything that I never had. But why I'm writing this is because of my husband's cousin... she's been starting a lot of the stress I've had lately, come to find out she's been starting a lot of issues for my husband and me ... isn't that lovely... after everything she's said to us about she's always their for us... yeah right a monkey's ass she is... she's the farthest from being their for us after what came out of the wood works last night...

     I'm 37 weeks pregnant... my first son is with my husband... yes... but my second isn't... why because we split up and i dated someone else cause we that person did a great job breaking my husband and i up during a really rough patch in our relationship... i had been dating my husband for 3 years and after our son and him working all the time and it got to me and we started having little issues since no one in his family after saying they'd help would come help me... plus i was also fighting re-cooperation from being a depressed person from my past, which I've been 5 years medication free which is great! So threw out this pregnancy my husband and I were getting strange texts, chat messages, and of course e-mails stating that this kid wasn't his, i have been cheating on him, that he's been cheating on me and that we both aren't meant to be parents that our kids our better off without us or they are better of with one or the other... well ... a mutual friend of ours who's always been closer to my husband got fed up with the bullshit and came right out and texted me asking me what the hecks up with my husbands cousin saying stuff like this because people started asking him, like what the hell rumors and drama here we go, at first i thought it was him asking to move in, which had recently happened with my husbands uncle... so i asked him straight out and then he asked me and i was very upset and more hurt by the fact she went around and started telling people that i don't know, people in my husband and her family and mutual friends, that just ain't right... you got an issues and have questions you come to the person don't go starting freaking rumors about shit you don't know i mean really why would i honestly fuck up my marriage for anything...?! right as they say misery loves company and she's been that way since she left a control freak... let alone she knows i don't like one of her son's cause he's a crazy loon who gets on my nerves and I've told many times I'd put in his place if he kept the shit up. Let alone she knows that my husband and I agree on everything before just doing which upsets her because he's no longer at her beck and call when it comes to dropping things now and helping her. So I'm sure she's using things to get back at us or me for taking that away. But then to talk shit about me to people that's worse... she doesn't even know me ... then I get random messages saying my kids are gonna get taken away, I'm gonna get it, and so on, seriously people need to stop being so damn shady come to the person they hear the shit about and ask them... is it that hard to actually confront someone... last i knew it was very easy... heck i do it all the time... I was told to speak the truth... and that's what I do... but unlike her I'm not sleeping with one guy and apparently dating another... what the heck is that... last i knew that as considered being a whore... but then again i could be wrong with the way society is now a days i swear people have more open relationships it's disgusting, what happened to being faithful, true, and pure... did that leave when my generation was born or even before that because it wasn't their for my parents and damn sure ain't here now... but enough with my rant... i just need to vent a little but seriously now people understand why i don't go out, why i stay in majority of the time it's because people like to start crap and stress me out and try to cause rips in my relationships...

        Well it's Friday and it's the long day for me and the boys so I'm not gonna let last night upset me or bother but all def. be watching what gets said... and who says it... and my husband and i won't be helping her for anything heck the last time she was supposed to help me i did everything then she tried to take credit for it and wound up falling asleep ... and the time before that she blew me off... way to go woman of year what i can't call her that ... she ain't a woman, she ain't a girl... hell i don't know what she is... besides a two-timing, back-stabbing tramp... yeah and i don't care if this gets back to her either cause i ain't afraid to call her out on it either... that's just who i am!