Christmas Dilemma

Uh oh Christmas Dilemma

   Wow, it's hard to realize I made it threw this year without my Nana and the famous holiday traditions we did with that side of my family, but after we laid her to rest in February the family split apart and we really don't see eye to eye anymore. Very sad actually but honestly it was bound to happen and coming soon in the near future anyways. But Thanksgiving was hard since I tried to include my father in my families Thanksgiving dinner but that just ended up with a big nasty freaking fight that I tried not to cry at but such is life it comes with divorced parents and parents that don't get along. But now we have Christmas coming up and I always remember my Nana loving this time cause she could decorate her tiny Christmas tree, talk to all our family members and of course send her love in every direction and of course cook, her favorite thing to do. But this year we still have many families to visit... first off have my father and mother split make Christmas and any big holiday a hard time... and that goes for my husbands side too since his parents are divorced as well. 

This year is gonna be tricky... Christmas and Christmas Eve is how we used to do our split family events. Well this year we have my Mom's vs. my Dad's but since my Nana isn't here we don't know what's happening ... I was gonna suggest to my Dad that we hold it at my house up in Pelham since honestly it's bigger than his house and we can accommodate the whole set of kids let alone his two grand kids my kids and the families. I know it's weird and all but I don't wanna be cramped in my dad's house either. 

    Another DILEMMA I'm having is who I'm gonna buy gifts for... MY CHILDREN are COMING FIRST no MATTER WHAT... because they are my children. I'm pretty happy that I'm buying for 3 boys it makes it a little bit easier. So this is what I'm thinking....

My List of who I'm buying for 

Gifts from both mommy/daddy & of course (SANTA)

-Sean

-Connor

-Kayden

Gifts from both my husband/self & the Grandbabies 

-My mom Mary

-My mother in law Shirley

-My sister in law Betsy (she's done so much for us-like saving us every time we are in a BIND)

-My father Brian

-My father in law Big Lorne

-My step-mother-in law Celio

-Bruce (he's done so much with helping me fix the house

-My sister Crystal

-My sister Nicky (the kids Aunt and God Mother to all three of my babies)

-My brother James

Everyone else (which is A LOT of people) 

are getting Christmas Cards with a family picture... I just don't have the money this year with the new baby coming before Christmas... which sucks cause I don't mind getting something small for everyone but this year I'm strapped for cash... 

Well that's my dilemma and I'm just hoping people understand... I know certain family members are gonna be upset but honestly we've gone through a lot in the Hatt House Hold and with a new baby on the way and arriving any day I need to focus money were it's most needed.

Thanksgiving Photo's!

Fall Arts & Crafts 

11.22.2012

thanksgiving day kisses for my husband

my main man in my life besides the three little boys that count on me every day!

Happy Thsnksgiving

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE!!!!

From the Hatt's Family to Yours!!!!

Thanksgiving 2012

Lorne, Amanda, Sean, Connor & itty bitty baby Kayden on the way!!

(pictures up later)

Highlights of November & December 2012

Wow!!!! 

(this is just the highlighted parts- def. stole this from Miss Sarah!)

November 2012

11.6.2012 Election Day (I Voted)

11.14.2012 Considered Full Term (Yay I can POP)

11.20.2012 Hatt's/Weagle's/& Fuller Thanksgiving

11.20.2012 Mediation for Parent Court 

11.22.2012 Hatt's Thanksgiving with Lorne's mother

11.24.2012 Santa's Arrival at Yankee Candle 

December 2012

12.5.2012 Due Date with Mr. Kayden Lucas

12.12.2012 Santa's Trains at Look Park 

12.24.2012 Fuller's Christmas (I think both my Mother's and Grandpa's)

12.25.2012 Hatt's Christmas

12.25.2012 Shirley's Christmas

12.31.2012-1.1.2013 NEW YEARS EVE PARTY

This is what's happening so far... I still have to pick day's for BRIGHT NIGHTS in Springfield (taking my mother, mother-in-law, and the kids)

Plus I want to try to go Christmas Caroling with my Grandpa on a Horse Wagon Ride through Look Park like we did back when I was pregnant with Connor... that was so much fun & would love to do it again. 

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

           Well yesterday I tried to do something amazingly nice... well that back fired in my face!  Lesson very much learned... and I swear I'm only doing things with my family, my husband and our kids after last night. I'm sorry but that was  stressful, uncalled for and some of it was immature... on the upside the cop's weren't called but still never the less my kids were around and that's not what I wanted hell no one could show up on time... and they all knew about it months in advanced.

     Yesterday was November 20, 2012, started off like any normal morning with a small feud between the hub's and me over stupid things, hence I'm pregnant so almost everything and anything has been getting to me ... but that's because I just want this lil guy out. We make a special breakfast for the boys and ourselves, Cina Buns... yum yum yum... then we went off to my Ob-Gyn doctors appointment for 11:20 am.
   If you want to know more about the appointment check out my pregnancy blog (link posted below)
http://thejourneyoflifethatbeginswithin.blogspot.com/


   So we get home a little after noon ish and finish making our Turkey for our Hatt's/ Fuller's/ and Weagle's Thanksgiving! I am of course 37 weeks and 7 days pregnant with my third baby who's been kicking my butt from the get go... Turkey was done around 3:15 in the after noon a little after I wanted everyone here yet no one could get here on time! Well okay my sister did after she told me she wasn't going to get here until 4 or later. So as my sister, her boyfriend, and my family wait for the rest of the people to show up. So everyone gets here around 4:45-5:00 pm almost two hours after we told everyone to be here... dinner was semi chilled as we tried to re-heat everything it was insane crazy... so while the hub's re-heated things my sister and I attempted to head to get my father, who apparently was having TRUCK troubles... likely story non the less we get half way down North Valley Road and he say's he's on his way... joyful... seriously... oh well as pissed as I already was... I was being told to calm down ... never tell a pregnant woman to calm down... BAD MISTAKE it kinda only made things worse... but that's okay ... I took a walk with my mom to my Grandpa Hatt's house so she could go surprise visit him, yet it was a great surprise though he went back to the Hospital GOD BLESS HIS SOUL... he's very sick and needs the care so my dinner was halted because they called for Lorne (my husband) and my mom of course went up because my dad was trying to get up there to be Mr. Know's it All... and that's when the FUN started... like wow really...
     About ten minutes after my mom and husband went next door my dad and sister had a great battle, I'm 37 weeks and 7 days pregnant went threw HELL and BACK to make a wonderful FAMILY THANKSGIVING dinner since it's our first year with out our Nana... my dad's mom... so I wanted to do something were my kids get to have their grandparents... yeah that was a big freaking mistake. But a lesson learned well. After dinner we did some picture taking of the people who were still here... heck we never made it to the pie that i made... but that's okay I wasn't in mood for sweets after dealing with one fight. Yet, worst part was the fact that both my mother and father said they'd have their meeting at my house cause it was a mutual meeting place... well that didn't happen cause my dad was so mad he drove off... joyful right. Well after everyone started to leave... I helped the hub's pick up some of the dishes and get the house back to normal before leaving to head off to my mom's house for my mom and dad to have their meeting and yet who would have thought another FAMILY freaking fight... do I really need to be subjected to this... it was getting late, I was falling asleep and just wanted to get home and go to bed which didn't happen until like Grrr lateness ... but that's how my yesterday went... Grrrr lessons learned and I'm glad it is just over.


Well Hope Everyone Else's Thanksgiving Goes better than this epic failure ... lol... oh well I got another tomorrow that should be akaward enough!

-13 Friend Survey-

- 13 Friends Survey -
Can you name 13 friends you can think of right off the top of your head?
Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 13 people.
This is a lot more fun if you actually randomly list the names first... no cheating!

1. Lorne
2. Sean
3. Connor
4. Sarah
5. Mary
6. Katie
7. Mike
8. Shauna
9. Nicky
10. Katelin 
11. Ron
12. Jason
13. Ryan

__________________________________________________________________

Is 1 your best friend? yes he's my husband

Do you go to school with 8? no 

How did you meet 10? threw number 4

Have you ever seen 4 cry? yes if pictures count 

Would 11 and 2 make a good couple? NO

Are you good friends with 13? yes she's my aunt :D

Would you go on a vacation with 6?  hell yes! 

Do you think 5 is cute? that's my mother!

Did you ever kiss 9? yeah ... we are practically sisters

Would you ever date 2? NO he's my son!

Does your family get along with 13? Yes she's family

Something about number 1? he's super sexy and he's a typical guy!

How did you meet 8? threw number 11

What is 7's favorite color? IDK 

What would you do if 6 just confessed that they liked you? giggle a little cause last i knew she liked me cause we sisters!

Fact about 9? she's crazy about my kids :D she love's her nephews

What does 1 do for a living? Product Specialist for Balise 

How many times have you hung out with 8? A LOT she's my neighbor

Would you ever live with 12? NOPE

Is 2 single? YES

Where does 7 live? in Amherst

What do you think about 2? that I love him very much!

Whats the worst and best thing about 5? Uhm she stresses too much!

Who is 11 going out with? Shauna 

What do you like about number 3? that he's my handsome little chunky monkey :D

lesson learned...

               Well let's see I don't trust easily and this is why... In  my life I've had too many people including people who legally were obligated not to talk about what we talked about to the other person... yup they failed... especially when the person who I feared confronted me on it, yeah tell me that wasn't messed up. But then again that wasn't it... their were other people who I then told me I could talk to them and nothing would be said yet always managed to get said back to the person I talked to them about, like really I was left alone in a world... my parents were divorced and they constantly fought in front of us kids, so I grew up with it... I grew up with fighting, swearing and hate... I'm not a hateful person, I'm very much the opposite and try hard to give my kids everything that I never had. But why I'm writing this is because of my husband's cousin... she's been starting a lot of the stress I've had lately, come to find out she's been starting a lot of issues for my husband and me ... isn't that lovely... after everything she's said to us about she's always their for us... yeah right a monkey's ass she is... she's the farthest from being their for us after what came out of the wood works last night...

     I'm 37 weeks pregnant... my first son is with my husband... yes... but my second isn't... why because we split up and i dated someone else cause we that person did a great job breaking my husband and i up during a really rough patch in our relationship... i had been dating my husband for 3 years and after our son and him working all the time and it got to me and we started having little issues since no one in his family after saying they'd help would come help me... plus i was also fighting re-cooperation from being a depressed person from my past, which I've been 5 years medication free which is great! So threw out this pregnancy my husband and I were getting strange texts, chat messages, and of course e-mails stating that this kid wasn't his, i have been cheating on him, that he's been cheating on me and that we both aren't meant to be parents that our kids our better off without us or they are better of with one or the other... well ... a mutual friend of ours who's always been closer to my husband got fed up with the bullshit and came right out and texted me asking me what the hecks up with my husbands cousin saying stuff like this because people started asking him, like what the hell rumors and drama here we go, at first i thought it was him asking to move in, which had recently happened with my husbands uncle... so i asked him straight out and then he asked me and i was very upset and more hurt by the fact she went around and started telling people that i don't know, people in my husband and her family and mutual friends, that just ain't right... you got an issues and have questions you come to the person don't go starting freaking rumors about shit you don't know i mean really why would i honestly fuck up my marriage for anything...?! right as they say misery loves company and she's been that way since she left a control freak... let alone she knows i don't like one of her son's cause he's a crazy loon who gets on my nerves and I've told many times I'd put in his place if he kept the shit up. Let alone she knows that my husband and I agree on everything before just doing which upsets her because he's no longer at her beck and call when it comes to dropping things now and helping her. So I'm sure she's using things to get back at us or me for taking that away. But then to talk shit about me to people that's worse... she doesn't even know me ... then I get random messages saying my kids are gonna get taken away, I'm gonna get it, and so on, seriously people need to stop being so damn shady come to the person they hear the shit about and ask them... is it that hard to actually confront someone... last i knew it was very easy... heck i do it all the time... I was told to speak the truth... and that's what I do... but unlike her I'm not sleeping with one guy and apparently dating another... what the heck is that... last i knew that as considered being a whore... but then again i could be wrong with the way society is now a days i swear people have more open relationships it's disgusting, what happened to being faithful, true, and pure... did that leave when my generation was born or even before that because it wasn't their for my parents and damn sure ain't here now... but enough with my rant... i just need to vent a little but seriously now people understand why i don't go out, why i stay in majority of the time it's because people like to start crap and stress me out and try to cause rips in my relationships...

        Well it's Friday and it's the long day for me and the boys so I'm not gonna let last night upset me or bother but all def. be watching what gets said... and who says it... and my husband and i won't be helping her for anything heck the last time she was supposed to help me i did everything then she tried to take credit for it and wound up falling asleep ... and the time before that she blew me off... way to go woman of year what i can't call her that ... she ain't a woman, she ain't a girl... hell i don't know what she is... besides a two-timing, back-stabbing tramp... yeah and i don't care if this gets back to her either cause i ain't afraid to call her out on it either... that's just who i am!

Coal Stove curses & blessings

Well FALL is already here and it's well yes indeed kinda chilly outside and WINTER is right around the corner. I have propane to heat half my house and a coal stove to heat the other half the of the house, don't get me wrong it's a wonderful thing... WHEN IT WORKS properly. I can blame this failure on my husband...

He started it about a week or two ago, with the night time weather dropping in the low teens... it's a wonderful thing since half my house is like 90+ degree's and the other half the house stays at a nice cool 68 degree's which is a nice mix... you can feel the temp change when coming in from out side... which is good! But last night the husband was being stupid... the stove almost went out... using the two bags of coal that I had brought inside he decided that he'd leave the other bags outside... not realizing that it's been blah the last few days he should have brought them in to DRY so they wouldn't cause issues with the stove, NEVER FEED A COAL STOVE WET COAL, that's a big NO NO! So he did anyways and by morning the stove that was almost out last night was yet again almost out again... so now I'm fighting with damp coal and a stupid stove! Grrr... I'm 37 weeks pregnant and shouldn't be lifting 50 lbs of RICE COAL for a COAL STOVE period! But since I'm the only one home who can physically lift it I guess it's left for me to do! On top of that it can sometimes get TOO HOT in this house too! It has it's days and has it's nights but when the weather is really nice it sucks cause with a coal stove their ain't no on/off switch once you start you can't stop till the season's over unless you wanna spend endless hours starting the stove up constantly... it's never fun it's a process that can take anywhere from 45 minutes to 90 minutes to get it to stay constantly lit.

So that's my little rant about my coal stove today... I'm sure all be back to write more about it ... I blame his mother who jinxed us yesterday!

What do you do when your neighbor's are idiots?!

What do you do when your neighbor's are idiot's?! 

(you document, record and inform the appropriate people)

Alright... most people have common sense and then again most people don't!

You've got the idiot, the educated idiot, and the uneducated idiot... well my neighbors fall into two of them the idiot and the educated idiot... well if you semi educated you seriously got issues. First of all you shouldn't be burning outta season hence it's very dangerous. Second you should be burning illegal things and posting it on facebook, durh hello seriously STUPID. Third you really should be careful with what you say when the person who say it to is married to the deputy chief of the fire department and of course has more concern for her husband than your stupid dream farm. So the first night Saturday ... we were driving up our road... and down at the start of the cemetery I could see a fire... as we got closer to the house it got bigger... well being me I flipped out on my husband who's the deputy and MADE him walk up and talk to them... they were burning a sofa, building material and other weird things... yeah you had marshmallow's and stuff but that's not a cooking fire... that right their is an illegal burn which in some ways is a felony offence (when you start burning pallets, sofa's, paint things, and electrical shit...) ... so the next day when I go visit they are still doing that shit... and they have the nerve to ask me "is their any one in the tower?" well honestly I wouldn't know as I don't have the portable. So I guess you gonna just have to wait and see... yet he was clear enough to who he was working with ... "it has to be out by 6 pm cause Lorne gets home a little after 7 and I don't want to listen to him" NEWSFLASH don't do stupid illegal shit and you won't deal with him. 

I have pictures of course... to prove what they are doing... and to use against them if anything so happens. 

They are in violation of many burning codes... 

1. not burning season

2. they were burning all day until 6 pm burning season only permits 10 am till 4 pm and nothing can be started after noon)

3. they are only permitted to burn brush (not pallets, not building materials, etc.)

4. you have to be 75 feet away from ANY DWELLING (including barns) yet they are more like fifteen feet from a barn, but they are far enough away from houses

5. you must have a water source available in-case the fire gets out of control

6. your area must be enclosed (yeah not a area where you have two open spots)

7. you can't be more than 3 feet high (yet they so where)

but that's just to name a few... 

So yeah easy what do you when they are that stupid... document it, record it, inform the authorities, and watch the shit hit the fan... except to be honest... I'm not doing anything wrong when you call and inform it as an anonymous tip and say your looking out for the near by dwellings... thankful this idiot has a hearing on the 14th (tomorrow) about his supposed farm... I don't care how shitty I feel I'm gonna go to that... hopefully my mom can come watch the kids... and help me out... well 

that's enough for this entry... all be sure to write about these idiots threw out the next few years... sadly I'm also related to them... only threw marriage though! 

Weekend Wrap up & a little of today!

Wow- what a freaking weekend

Saturday, November 10th, 2012:

Well let's see the husband work his 8:30 am till 6:00 pm shift at the car-dealership. I was sick all day and spent most of it if not all of it on my tiny sofa in pain. Then like at 5:30 pm got the nerve since my husband send me a text saying he never gets to rest before he falls asleep... wow... make a pregnant wife, mother and person feel really shit while she's sick... so bad that I cleaned the whole freaking house... yup cleaned it and even hunted down the infant car-seat bases and wound up on my butt in the storage box ... yup that hurt... then once he got home around 7:00 pm we loaded the kids up and headed off to Stop and Shop to get WIC and some food spending almost $100.00 ooops! Not my intentions but damn... gotta finish the SNAP application because we can't afford crap now... this SUCKS!

Came home, made some soup and I went to bed... same with the boys since they were over tired... 

Best part to Saturday was having my husband go up and warn the neighbors that they were doing a stuff that could get them arrested. Dummies .. I'm tired of it ... next time I'm calling it in and reporting it... then they can say it was me and I'd be like wasn't me I got better things to do than watch out for your stupidity... Well that was Saturday and it wasn't much fun since I felt like I was hit by a damn Mack Truck that drove over threw itself into reverse and backed over me ... damn damn damn and I feel that way again today (on a Manic Monday)

Sunday, November 11, 2012 (Veteran's Day):

Well let's see hubby let me sleep in till like 8:00 am. That was nice since it was a nice solid 10 hours of sleep with out getting up in the middle of the night... after that I was def. afraid to get outta bed cause last time that happened when I got outta bed at 36 weeks and 5 days pregnant with my last pregnancy. But then again I'm kinda anxious to get him out he's causing me ton's of pain... 

So my husband worked his 11:00 am till 6:00 pm shift at the car-dealership... yet he was so lucky to come home to a home cooked meal that was ready and served to him as soon as he walked threw the door... damn he's lucky... and the kids were already bathed and in PJs ... yeah he had an EASY night while I had a semi rough day... seriously! All I asked was for a foot massage but that got interrupted because of a medical call up the road, then he was dead set on me sitting in the Jacuzzi Tub don't get me wrong it was nice at first yet it def. did some work on me since I couldn't walk when I got out cause of the water interference with the belly. He set it up for me but was supposed to help me out and and in yup I climbed in myself... then helped my self out (which sucked) because it was hard to stand... then again it caused me to be so congested I couldn't sleep, couldn't get comfortable and then I asked him to give me a ten minute calve massage but get the remark I treat him like a freaking slave... wtf ... I clean, cook and make sure he's GOT NOTHING to do when he gets home and I'm 36 weeks and 6 days pregnant suffering because no one will come help... besides my family when they can and his family says they'll help yet they are never around or are always busy. Like wow don't say your gonna help if you not gonna really help, seriously this sucks. Oh well that day's in the past... and so is the drama of next door too!

Monday, November 12, 2012 (Manic Monday 8:30 am until 10:30 pm of work for the Hubs)

Good-morning!

Wow it's already 10:48 am and it feels like it's 15 minutes to noon, yet that is probably because I have been up since freaking 4:45 am this morning with contractions, pain, cramps, congestion, and of course that horrible nightmare... Grrr gotta love it... boys were up at 7:00 am and they went to bed around 7:30 pm last night... wish they would have slept in, let alone I'm getting tired of the family saying Sean needs to be in preschool, I'd love to but since I can't work full-time since no one wants to help me out I can't do much to get money to pay for my all the stuff they want. (gotta love being said shit and having shit said behind my back and doing the best you can with what you have). Well my youngest managed to bite his tongue, ouchie but it's all better gotta love when they are wearing sleepers and slide across the floor ... ooops worst part is it's not even mopped, it's just always that slippery. Then him and his brother go into it ... all because he wanted to cuddle with his older brother who's in the stage he don't want nothing to do with him, makes me sad I miss the caring side of him... he wants to interact with kids his own age but can't cause I don't have the money to send him there... and of course no one wants to help ... we don't make nearly as much money as we did before when the hub's worked at Walgreen's yet this is gonna be a better paying job... but I don't see it... We are behind in the cable, cell, house, car, and of course electric... oh and we need propane... JOYFUL! talk about stress!

Well it's now 10:53 am and I need to rest... I'm stressing so much I am getting sick... let alone I don't think I'm eating enough to keep up with my strength ... glad I got a doctors appointment this coming Wednesday and tomorrow lil man has his appointment for his flu shot tomorrow... joyful!

Happy Veterans Day

Happy Veteran's Day!

God Bless all those who've served & done all they can to serve! You've given us our FREEDOM at the cost of many things to you... I'd like to thank you from the bottom of my heart knowing that Freedom don't come Free at no cost! God Bless you, your family & your fellow brothers & sisters! & God Bless the one's who serve today... Who are giving back to these vet's so they know that what they fought for so long ago is still being fought for today! GOD BLESS YOU ALL ....
Once a soldier Always a soldier
Once a marine Always a marine
Always remembered Never forgotten

Weekend Has Arrived

Wow... we made it to Saturday!-+

Well last night Ange was able to not blow us off! Yay! But she honestly didn't do much... I feed the kids, changed the kids, and even put them to bed... so much for actual help... heck I even stood over my stove making food for myself feeling like I was gonna fall into it and yeah ... thankfully I didn't... She went in to say goodnight to the boys and she passed out on the day bed in their room along with the kids... seriously! Oh well everyone was out at 7:10 pm. So I used that time to eat and rest... cause I just was feeling like utter crap... and still am feeling like crap... thank you lovely coal stove that has dried out my house... Grrr I need more humidifiers and more rest... though it will never happen!

Well today Connor was up at 6:45 am according to dad... and Sean was up at 7:00 am according to day but they let me sleep until 8:00 am which was nice yet they are at each other's throats already and Connor's already ready for his nap... TOO EARLY though it's only been 3 hours since he's been up ... I don't think he's feeling a 100% since he's been attached to my side. Either that or he didn't sleep well...

I went to bed at 1:00 am cause I couldn't breath... gotta love being congested then woke up to a bloody nose like really the last three days I have had horrible bloody noses cause of my damn coal stove that's apparently dried out the air in my house. I guess it's good that it keeps it warm but seriously we need more air circulation so that I'm not dealing with bloody noses, congestion and sore throats.

Well it's 10:00 am and my youngest wants to take his nap early nap hopefully means he will be up at a reasonable time  ... Now to get my oldest to start listening to me and of course help me clean up... Can't touch boys room yet... but we can of course work on the living room once his brother is officially asleep that way we don't keep him up. Grrr!

On a side note... I'm not a happy camper at the present moment not because of my kids but because of my neighbors feeling they can use my drive way to access parts of their property ... I Freaking think NOT! My property not yours! Ugh seriously feeling like I'm gonna faint ... this sucks thanks for the stress jerks... and of course since my oldest won't listen to me I doubt his brother will actually take his nap... yup I was right this sucks balls TODAYs gonna be ROUGH!

BRB gotta put the youngest down... again! Ugh this is gonna be a rough day and I'm stuck doing everything myself... gotta love being pregnant and getting no help from people ... some I understand they work some purposely do shit to piss me off.... I'm bout to put an ends to a lot of shit!

Well time to get myself motivated even if I'm feeling weak, lightheaded, dizzy and of course like I'm gonna pass out ... cause someone has to clean this house and keep it perfect cause it's only me!

Well all be back later... maybe!




~Getting aggravated cause apparently I don't have property since they keep coming on to it... I'm bout to go ape shit... they take anything off it and we are gonna have words... I may be pregnant but my mouth ain't... all speak up... I don't give two flying freaks what people think! I married the land owner to this property all make sure things are done my way! Great now they are coming into the house BLAHHHHH~ So much for knocking on my door... right!

Mid-Day on the LONG DAY

Congratulations Amanda it's 1:27 pm on Friday, November 9th, 2012...
Well this morning Kayden was very quiet, he didn't move much and I drove all the way out to Springfield to drop off my husbands cell phone that he mistakenly left at home... no big deal he gave me $20.00 to bring it to him so I could put my $18.00 in my gas tank... I guess Whiting Energy no longer does propane so now I'm fucked... Ameri-Gas won't take us cause apparently we are in violation yet we passed when the house was built and so forth... so now we have to fix everything... before they will take us a new customers ... just freaking lovely... RIGHT?!  So I guess Ostermen bought Whiting Energy's propane clients but who the hell know's how much they cost... this sucks... since we were told that Whiting was gonna deliver propane to us Monday or Tuesday ... GREAT... how the freak does that happen if they aren't doing propane anymore... like seriously what more can I take...

My goal today is clean the house, pack my hospital bag, and get the bases to the infant car-seats set up and ready for transport ... I'm hoping Kayden will come in the next few days cause I seriously can't take his I'm gonna be stubborn this day and then hyper this day... just come out already little man... we are ready... I mean I would love to meet you and get my belly down a size or two... lmfao.


I'm waiting to hear if Lorne's cousin is gonna bail out on us... like she bailed out on me last time... she better not be fucking lazy here either... I want to be able to rest... not have to worry bout much except packing my damn hospital bag, getting the infant car-seat in the SUV and ready in-case this weekend he chooses to come... Well I'm happy that my youngest has gone down for his nap at 1:38 pm that means he won't be waking up till almost 4 pm then going to bed again at 7:30/8:00 pm ... my oldest on the other hand is refusing his nap... he's been up since 6:30 am and went to bed last night around 11 pm ... so I'm really dragging since I didn't go to bed till whee hours in the am then get up and outta bed at 7 am once the husband left... Wow!

I've drank 20ozs of cola today and that hasn't helped me wake up but at least I'm drinking my sprite to keep hydrated with something that is helping my throat... I have my living room to clean up and I just don't have the energy or strength to clean it with Kayden causing pressure every time I do some serious moving around... plus my living room feels like a million degree's and it SUCKS... Well I am gonna try to rest a little but since my youngest is sleeping and my oldest is of course playing with his toys on the couch...

All be back later of course to keep updated ... damn that little shit faked us out he's not napping he's not banging on his gate... Grrr alright attempt three hopefully I can get him down before 2 pm.

Wish me luck... lol

Ugh what a morning & it's only 9 am

Wow so after a night in the child-birth center in Northampton over at Cooley Dickinson Hospital... and the pit stop to the store to get some snacks... yeah let's just say I didn't get much if any sleep... Cause we got home around 12 am...
We relived my sister-in-law or my husband's sister who was down here to stay with the kids since she thought Kayden was coming, coming but Kayden just wanted to keep us on our toes...

12:15 am we are getting ready for bed my husband decides he want's to drink some more of his Dr. Pepper that he already exploded once in my car... LMFAO told him to be careful... does he listen nope... gets home goes up stairs... lays down in bed opens soda and yet again it explodes... LMFAO ... then he gets pissy cause 1/4 of his soda is gone and he didn't get to drink it... well Dr. Pepper in 20oz bottles or in bottles period are more dangerous than in cans... proven fact. So he managed to soak the bed comforter, get his phone completely wet... (of course his cell phone case broke so yeah he had NO PROTECTION on it so my first reaction unplug it and dry it off making sure no soda go into the ports ... job successfully completed) then we had to strip the bed so I really didn't get any chance of sleep till like 1 am... isn't that nice knowing I had to get up early since my kids NEVER sleep in...

Well I finally get to fall asleep around 5 am isn't that joyful... I laid in bed watching t.v. for the first hour in bed I got to deal with a killer bloody nose... that SUCKED!
Two hours later my husband got up and heck those little rug rats were up too and they only went to bed around 11 pm ... so they are gonna be a little fussy today... FAMILY NAPS are required... only suckie part is I tried texted my husband a few times... then my son gets into his dad's chair and finds his cell phone.. Grrr then around 8:40 I get a phone call from Springfield... low and behold it's the husband I think I left my phone at home... well my first reaction when I saw the number was wow... you realized you left the phone at home... he goes yeah were was it I was gonna have you check outside... lmfao your son found it... it was on the floor in- front of your chair... Guess all head out around 9:30 am to bring it to you... not something I want to do but since I don't know where half way is during lunch time and with No GPS I'm not gonna stress myself out & go into labor in Springfield... F That... so now it's 9:11 am and I'm trying to find clothing for these two fussy, non-listening boys of mine so that we can drive off to Springfield to return dad's cell phone since he needs it for work... JOYFUL... Guess to day gets more stressful besides yesterday's triumphs... oh well all manage just mean's more reason for Kayden to come... yet I still need to pack my bag, clean the bases to the car-seat and so on... Got a lot to do in a little time and with NO HELP from people ... OH WELL all live...

See you later all update once before I go to sleep... to tell yeah if my help blew me off and if I was able to accomplish some kinda REST... lol

Mid-Day post!

It's 2:35 pm on November, 8th, 2012! It's rainy outside which made all the SNOW or the DUSTING of snow we got MELT! Sad sad sad oh well ...
Okay well since I stopped after that last sentence cause I was just getting to weak to focus... not cool... still am really weak... don't want to move much... either...

Well let's do a OVER VIEW of my DAY!

10:20 am AmeriGas Propane came to do the swap... well the supposed swap...... That was a WHOLE waist of TIME let alone stressed me the fuck out since they refused to do it cause of many reasons all of which need to be fixed before they can of course come back... so now I'm stuck with Whiting Energy who is a heartless company! So after being told that they can't hook me up or delivery me propane and that I was practically out of propane... I damn near broke down... I couldn't handle that and the messy house I had ... I tried so hard to keep clean before them coming... well I get home and my mother in law had pretty much helped me out with the dishes and cleaning the boys room... we realized they need BIGGER and MORE toy boxes with all their toys... Guess that's on their christmas lists... along with a few items.

Welll I left my house around 11 am and headed to my appointment that was at 11:20 am in Hadley ... well I made it to my appointment at 11:23 am ...not bad but then again I hate being LATE! So I wait 5 minutes and then I'm seen the appointment seriously last ten minutes if that... gotta love seeing a doctor that's in and out and then tells you oh sorry for not going near you I'm sick and don't want to get you sick... seriously... WTF next time call out and have someone else take your shift... like don't get a pregnant woman sick!

On the way to my appointment I saw my father... not like it's outta the blue his house is on the way to the doctors office, but who he was with shocked me... I was already upset and ticked off as it was so that didn't help after all he should really drop the person he was with like a bad freaking habit. Then again you can teach an old stupid dog new tricks if they are just too stubborn to learn!

Well on my way home from my doctors appointment I stopped in at Stop & Shop and of course got some hamburger, rice, tomato sauce, canned potatoes, some microwave mac n cheese, and of course some soda and broccoli for me...  but when shopping for that I was in some serious pain... every step I took felt like I was gonna drop the baby or my water was gonna break... I don't like that feeling... so I practically ran to the register and cashed out and left... on my way home ... I noticed some cramping but it wasn't bad so I just blocked it out... got home saw my house... and filled in my mother in law ... then she left... not bad since she was down at my house around 10:30 am cause of the propane people thank goodness since I was freaking out... yet she had some good questions that made me question their reasons of why we could have the swap. I was home by noon so she had been down at my house for 1 hour and 30 minutes so that wasn't bad... but she wasn't feeling good and I'm glad I got home when I did and didn't go on the monitor cause I wouldn't have gotten home until after noon closer to 1 pm. But after she left and I started cooking yeah I was def. regretting that choice... So now it's 4:25 pm and I'm still feeling weird pains, my right ear is like burning, and I only got to rest for 30 minutes... so now I'm completely congested, and trying to do everything I can to make  Kayden move so I don't have to go to Northampton... but it the cramps and pain don't go away all call and see what they say... maybe they'll induce me and all have Kayden sooner rather than later... I really want this little guy out.

So now that I'm in pain... I have to wait until my husband gets home before I can do anything cause their is no one to come watch my kids. This sucks... but this is also the life I married into...Well it's 4:30 pm and my youngest is up since my oldest woke him up then passed out ... lucky him I wanted them both to take naps but that didn't happen my youngest got an hour nap and my oldest gets up in 30 minutes and he'll had an hour nap. Ugh this sucks I just to rest, get Kayden to move and of course find out if they want to see me... tonight or another appointment tomorrow! Joyful right! only hard part is ... finding a baby sitter... let alone Lorne works 9 am until 9 pm tomorrow ... UNLESS I GO INTO LABOR or I'm stuck in the hospital over night for observation.

So then my mother calls me around 4 pm to say that she's had a rough day and that her day has been worse then mine... don't you just love those calls... I'm like I doubt it but okay... Yes she's had an equally stressful day... but can't be as bad as mine... she just needs to learn to be more proactive and less inactive. But that's my mother very negative instead of positive. So yeah that's what I get to deal with ... on top of all my stress and issues... I get to deal with my mothers too!


Well it's just my youngest and me and he's just not in the mood to listen since he didn't get his FULL NAP thanks to his lovely big brother! Grrr making for one very cranky pregnant mama. My husband has 1 hour and 21 minutes left of work then a horrible 45 minute drive home. I'm getting wicked congested and I just hit my belly were the baby is and DAMN that hurt... gosh I want him out my belly is SO SENSITIVE, but on the upside Kayden moved and it of course caused PAIN. Well hoping these next few hours get better instead of worse...

Still stressing that we need heat and don't get how we aren't in code... I doubt they would have passed this house if it was outta code... like seriously WTF. Oh well gonna breath and pray it gets better... I'm gonna go for now and try to get little man to move some more... then keep my youngest at bay a long with getting my oldest up who's gonna be super duper cranky since he's on the top bunk and my pregnant butt can't go fetch him. Grrrr I hate bunk beds while pregnant.

WHAT A STORM!!!! WHAT A JOKE!!!!

well yesterday everyone was worried about a snow storm that we didn't even get... we got a light and I mean a light dusting of snow and in some area's they got nothing... it was another joke... the weather people really need to make sure they have their facts straight because I mean really seriously getting people in a panic to make some money isn't the smartest ... in reality it causes accidents and problems for the emergency services and people who are trying to live their every day lives.

well sadly i was kinda hoping for a little bit more snow than we got... it wasn't too bad it wasn't even an inch of snow so it's not all that worthy :( oh well live, learn and wait till later this year!

Well all post a few of the pictures I have a tad later... buh bye.... gotta go blog on my other blog and get ready for my OB-GYN appointment and for the new propane company we are switching too.... yay!

Election Day Wrap up!

Election Day Wrap Up


Well it's 5:12 pm on Tuesday, November 6th, 2012! I voted! Did you?! My lovely sis came and visited yet again and that was awesome! My kids love her and miss her dearly when she's up in New Hampshire...

Well I'm trying my all at making my very first BY MYSELF Chicken Roaster in prep for Thanksgiving coming right around the corner... not much different right?! Well IDK I'm not the bird being cooked... lmfao. I'm making homemade gravy, gonna have some chicken stuffing and mixed veggies along with mashed potatoes! Yum! Can't wait to see how it comes out... it should be done around 7:30 ish if I don't mess it up...


Well let's see I was up at 4:45 am and was awake until 7:45 am where I seriously should have just gotten motivated and had the hub's get up and help me... we didn't get motivated until like 8:30 am... which THREW off my whole day and all my plans...

was able to finish washing the car-seats, half washed the crib ... now must do a once more over! pretty excited that I was able to move the two dressers that we are moving since we chose to just move two and leave the baby at the foot of the bed since we didn't want to have the hub's leaning over me to help with night time duties. I guess that was nice of him... we are excited to have our room semi cleaned again! I'm happy to have it cleaned again myself...  though I have so much stuff to move around and get organized... must get the crib set up too along with putting away clothing and what not...
got half the living room in shambles too ... grrr this just isn't my freaking day to be honest... I mean really how hard was it for him to devote his WHOLE ONLY DAY off to help me... since he had to work SUNDAY and then tells me oh yeah my boss told me the only time this sale could be finished was TUESDAY his second ONLY DAY OFF... I don't care how much money you get paid an hour and what not... That don't help me get ready for the baby that can COME ANY FREAKING DAY NOW...

Well topic change... back to the ELECTION!

-I voted! I'm happy bout my choices... Obama and Warren... why because Rape isn't something us woman cause and two because I need birth control, I also use MassHealth BMC cause I don't have the luxury to have a damn job and still take care of my kids... like some people that get handed to them on silver platters that really pisses me off with Romney  I work for everything I have... and to where I've gotten... I mean really I graduated... I haven't been able to attend college because I became a mother right outta high school! Trying to get back on my feet in this shitty economy sucks... especially since Bush fucked it up in eight years I feel that it's only fair that Obama get's eight years to of course attempt to make amends fixing it... So I voted for Obama and Warren... everyone else I just kinda voted for by what I semi-knew... I'm sorry I don't follow the election like everyone else... All I know is that I wasn't voting for someone who wanted to get rid of section 8, masshealth/medicade, foodstamps, and assistance to the people WHO ACTUALLY need it not the one's screwing over the damn state... *cough cough* sadly I know a few people that are really handing it to government... by constantly having children, by lying about things it's sicking and sad... seriously sad... especially when they go to the depths of keeping things in their daughters name who passed away last year... seriously disgusting... nasty... rotten and YUCK!

Well I guess I should count my blessings that I'm honest with the government I barely work... due to child care... and with the government who has stopped funding child care for poor people... that's left me to be the 50's house wife... who cooks, cleans and takes care of the house, kids and pets... while the husband works... since in this economy we need to have one working 50+ hours to survive...

Well it's 5:27 pm I'm gonna pause here... and do some more around the house, check the food & pray that I can keep these fussy, sleepy & cranky kids awake long enough to eat the dinner I'm cooking let alone from trashing what's already been done to this house... also I'm gonna go find out if the Hub's is done at work... trying to get everything done sucks... I didn't sign up for being a married woman living the single life... seriously this was supposed to be a 50/50 partnership yet I'm doing 95% of it... unless I get cranky... well off I go!


Yay it's 6:38 pm my husband is officially HOME, dinner is ALMOST DONE! & he voted... yet he decided it'd be funny to come in and say he voted for ROMNEY.... like seriously ... WTF then tells me after I'm ready to ream him in now I voted for Obama! Grrr seriously like way to send me into LABOR! Jackass!


Well yeah this bird is TAKING FOREVER! I'm hungry NOW! Gonna snack on some mints and hold myself over got another freaking HOUR yikes!

Be back later of course!

Well it's now 7:20 pm on Tuesday night anxiously awaiting NCIS, NCIS LA... the normal for my typical Tuesday night ... hopefully it's on with it being election night and all... yikes forgot to think of that one... my damn BIRD is taking for EVER... like seriously and my mother-in-law is a pain in my ass like ugh... but that's okay... I mean really I call you at like 3:45 pm because the kids want to see you then you call at 7:20 to freaking talk to them knowing it's their god damn bed time like what the freak man... today just hasn't been my freaking day and it don't' look like it will every be MY DAY any time soon with my husbands new job, the new baby coming soon and the family that says they will help that magically is never around... like seriously don't offer the help if your not gonna freaking follow through with it... well I must start making the stuffing, the veggies and checking the potatoes... can't wait to eat, get the boys ready for bed & of course put them to bed... finish the master bedroom so I can go to bed and then of course let the husband start the freaking coal stove...

Well it's 8:33 pm and both boys are heading to bed... time for us to get finishing on the Master Bedroom then I'm off to bed I'm tired... I'm stressed and annoyed but living life... Nuh Night see you tomorrow with pictures of everything accomplished on the upside... Dinner came out alright!

Potty Training

Well my youngest is 22 months old today! Yay lil man! Well he's not the youngest since I'm currently pregnant with his younger brother! That's gonna be weird from him being the youngest to the middle child... But he's doing great with potty training he peed on the big boy potty last night after tubby time and again this morning after breakfast... Mommy & Daddy couldn't be more proud of him and his accomplishments... My 4 year old on the other hand... he's being testy with potty training ... he's been very hard... I'm trying my hardest not to feel like a failure but he's just not grasping it... I feel like I've done something wrong... my youngest has it down except of pooping cause he's still small and almost falls into the toilet every time... I'm trying not to make my oldest feel bad when his little brother gets praise for doing well on the potty... but the jealous of him over his brother getting rewards makes me feel bad...

So any parent's out there that can help me with potty training a 4 year old who just doesn't want to go potty on the big boy toilet?! My youngest seems to have it down and I'm very pleased and happy about it.


Any one who hasn't been a parent but worked with children is more than welcome to comment too! All advice is appreciated at this point!

Manic Monday!

Well last night we decided to start working in the spare room to locate the crib and pieces needed to make it work. Well low and behold I found the crib and the lovely pieces we thought we'd lost! They were all upstairs between the two rooms!

So on top of starting that project my lovely sis from New Hampshire ... well originally from Massachusetts came down and surprised the boys with a mid-late night visit! And should be coming back over again today... hopefully soon... since she said she had to leave by 3pm today... yikes it's almost 12noon now... wonder if plans changed... lol
Yikes that reminds me what are we doing for LUNCH?!

Well today's a MANIC MONDAY- my husband works from 8:30am- 11pm so the boys don't get to see much of daddy today... but at least he has tomorrow off... the main reason they don't see him is cause he has Drill later tonight at the fire station... yup I'm married to the fire wife life! Something of course I wouldn't change for the world...

So on top of that he works his normal shift at the car-dealer ship in Springfield... So if your looking to get a new or used car, suv, or truck go to Balise Chevrolet Buick GMC and check them out ... they aren't all that bad I found my next SUV that I can't honestly wait to have! A Chevy Suburban ... oh she's a beast but she's a beauty... but we can't do that until next year... :( sad sad sad


This weekend was stressful as my husband was supposed to have yesterday off ... which would have given us a whole day to complete the tasks at hand... yet yeah that didn't work... but that's alright... We did locate two infant car-seats that I'm going to try to save... We did locate the crib my youngest out grew and this morning I did find the pieces that held the crib together... so we found some of the important parts... now to actually finish getting things were they are supposed to be would be awesome. I have SO MUCH LAUNDRY it's not even funny... guess that's what happens when you do a ton of moving around and slacking off... hmmm gonna bring it all down into the basement see if my mother in law can handle some and hopefully have it completely done before Christmas... yet that's holding my breath since I ain't supposed to be going into the basement for safety issues since I'm a tad more as we say front HEAVY.

Well I'm pretty excited since my husband informed me that he does have Thanksgiving off which mean's we are going to his mom's house and still having ours on Tuesday before Thanksgiving just in-case Kayden decides to come early ... I'm hoping sooner rather than later because sleepless nights, constant pain yeah I'm ready for my old body back ... he he he

Well enough for now... all post again later when BONES is on around 8pm! See you all then!

...smh....

Wow... just completely baffled... seriously completely baffled.
I don't have much to say that won't find it's way twisted and turned... Grrr this really sucks but either way I'm just baffled... horrified as well... I just don't understand people sometimes.... Oh well we live we learn and we move on...

Time to make some LUNCH

Family Pictures

The Hatt's Family 

My husband, my oldest Seanie Bear, my middle son Chunky Monkey and my preggo belly with lil mr. Kayden and of course Mama aka ME!

These are the boys who keep me on my toes, these are the boys who keep me young at heart, these are the boys who call me Mom or Babe... these boys right here are MY LIFE!

11.2.12 Hatt's Family 

11.2.2012 another funny picture of us ... I love all our smiles :D

11.2.2012 black n white and everyone's smiling which makes this the best picture yet!

Happy Belated Halloween PICTURES

Well my babies got TWO nights of TRICK or TREATING! We went to the Hampshire Mall Mall-O-Ween event on October 30th... we did it the year before too! *but if we recall that was the only trick-or-treating most people got since Western-Mass was hit with a devastating Nor-Eastern that went from Oct. to Nov. and was pretty horrible... most feared similar damage with Hurricane Sandy being near* But we got lucky this year we only got rain and heavy winds...

This year we went trick or treating up at Grandma's house, the Pelham Elementary school and of course we hit up our my other brothers house in Rolling Green ... they made out pretty well... they don't need that much candy & plus they were ready to go home any ways... so all in all it was fun and they had a blast! Can't believe that next year all have three little trick or treating munchkins!

Morning after Halloween going threw their TRICK or TREAT bags!

Trick or Treating at Grandma Shirley's house... going threw their goodies before Trick or Treating

Connor taking charge! As his brother watches and waits... 

Trick or Treat at the Mall-O-Ween Halloween event!

RWAR says Mr. T-Rex